It’s a weird feeling you know moving on I know its always been part of my current journey ,its been in the back on my mind since assessment but its never felt real what with my home team dragging their heels .I’ve always thought about it and dreamed about a life outside of hospital but never believed it would ever happen and now it is. Its scary , its new , its different and is change something which does not bode well with autism
Its like a whole new level of acceptance, of processing and its really hard . I have so many mixed emotions so much information to take in its a whole new level of responsibility .I ask myself am I capable? Can I manage this? Its exciting to think that I will own a house, it will be my own safe place somewhere where I won`t have to share with other service users. A life away from alarms and incidents and other peoples influence’s somewhere that i can call home and I can make it a home
A place I can expand on my identity become sociable instead of isolative become a human have a job go on holiday do the normal everyday things that neurotypical people can manage. I will finally become a form of neurotypical, no more having to have awkward conversations with others about the fact I don’t actually live anywhere but hospital, but it’s a big world out there how will I cope? I know I will have support but its just mind blowing nothing has never come this close to independence I’ve never come this far to discharge its so new so foreign. I don’t know what to expect and even whether to trust what is happening as my dad said its just to good to be true and I feel like I am testing myself massively
I have created so many great relationships here and have made so much progress ,its hard to think that I am eventually going to have to cut this support and live without a hospital environment live without rules .It breaks me because this place is currently my world its going to be so so hard and emotional ,How do I face this ?How do I say goodbye to some of the most amazing support staff I have ever met? It baffles me the progress I have made its overwhelming it is such a strange feeling but so amazing at the same time
Its so exciting I cant wait to start this process I deserve this and its going to be amazing its real its actually happening I will own my own flat I will be able to make it my own
I am really looking forward to the next step in my life to progress further and become independent.i will have my own flat I have worked hard for this and it will soon be time to fly the nest onto pastures new but is the grass always greener on the other side ?